Liv Thyge

Verden Virkelig Gik Under

Ser du, hvis man har holdt tre dages non-internet ud, så begynder man virkelig at tro at verden vil gå under. Især hvis Internet-Kineseren ikke kunne finde ud af hvad der er galt. For en måned siden var det det samme problem. Mor var i Danmark, så valgt Far bare at købe en ny router. Nu er den død igen. Eller nej. Da manden gik, og påmindede at han kom med en ny router imorgen. Det var som om den nuværende router blev bange og lod sig virke igen. Fordi det gjorde den. Virkelig weird.

Nu spilles der høj musik i stue-etagen, drikkes kir, far basker rundt med 4,4 kg kød og vi alle er glade. Fordi vi er samlet. Alle 6. Bror kom med flyet idag. Tænk at der skulle gå mindst 6-7 måneder før hele familien er samlet. Jeg tror at familiens samlingspunkt, a.ka. Mor, er lykkeligst. Selvom jeg gjorde hende ked af det, da jeg sagde at jeg ville hjem. Nu fortryder jeg det lidt. Jeg har jo PMS. Jeg hader Kina. Og kulden. Og kineserne. Nej, jeg er ikke racist. De er bare fandens SÅ uhøflige. Jeg savner min seng. Mine dyner. Mine puder. Jeg savner også at kunne forstå tv. At kunne finde ud af at trykke på apparater, der IKKE er på kinesisk. Jeg savner mine venner. Jeg savner at spille fodbold. Jeg savner rigtigt brød. Jeg savner rigtige kartofler (selvom jeg hader dem anyways). Jeg savner rigtigt øl. Jeg savner Danmark. Jeg savner København. Jeg hader Beijing. Jeg hader forureningen. Jeg hader kaosset. Jeg hader kinesere (endnu en gang).

Mest af alt hader jeg at være så langt væk fra Bjørnen. Både fysisk og psykisk. Fordi Kina har pludseligt besluttet at klippe internetforbindelsen mellem os to over. Så var det én enkelt sms om dagen. Gosh, hvordan fanden kunne jeg overleve mine yngre, teenage-forelskede dage?!

Grove ord, i know. Men hvis man har PMS, ikke har talt med den eneste ene der kan bringe mig til fornuft og få mig til at ikke gå sving over ingenting, og ensomhed, kan det hele bringe ens forstand på grænsen. Nu er jeg ved at gå langsomt tilbage.

Dog har jeg stadig slemt jetlag. Så slemt som aldrig før. Jeg går i seng mellem kl. 22-23. Fint. Jeg falder i søvn. Fint. Jeg kan aldrig huske at jeg ret faktisk falder i søvn. Ok. Så plejer jeg at vågne kl. 4-5. Nogle gange står jeg op, nogle gange vender jeg bare rundt i sengen og fortsætter med at have mareridt, inden jeg står op, og nogle gange står jeg bare op kl. 6.00. Idag er et fremskridt, fordi jeg vågnede først kl. 7.00. Men snart er det gået en uge og hvis jeg ikke vågner først kl. 10-12.00, føler jeg at jeg er ved at miste mig selv.

Behøver jeg at sige at jeg glæder mig utroligt meget til at komme tilbage d. 30 og rejser igen d. 31 til the city of madness?

Farwell!

Get intimate with me. now.

01: tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now?
His kissing
02: what on your body is hurting or bothering you?
…
03: what was your last thought before going to bed last night?
“Let me sleep now” Jeeetlaaag
04: what are you listening to?
…
05: what’s something you’re not looking forward to?
The flight to DK again
06: where do you think your best friend is right now?
In the most beautiful city of world
07: have you kissed anybody in the last five days?
Nope.
08: sex on the first date?
No.
09: kiss on the first date?
Yes.
10: is there one person you want to be with right now?
Of course.
11: are you seriously happy with where you are in life?
If, I was in xxx, I would be the happiest girl in world.
12: is there something you would like to say to someone?
Foregive me.
13: what are three things you did today?
Waken up, eaten breakfast and watched a movie.
14: would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over?
Both. As long there is food.
15: what is your favorite kind of gum?
Hubba Bubba.
16: are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/ girlfriends?
All of them, yes.
17: what is on your wrists right now?
A pair jeans.
18: ever liked someone you thought you didn’t stand a chance with?
Yes.
19: does anyone have strong feelings for you?
Hehe, yeah.
20: are you slowly drifting away from someone?
Yes. Thats how it goes if you found the only one you love.
21: have you ever wasted your time on someone?
Yeah.
22: can you do the alphabet in sign language?
Hehehehe
23: how have you felt today?
Lazy.
24: you receive £60 without any reason, what do you spend it on?
Tickets for flight to somewhere
25: what is wrong with you right now?
My hair is messy up and I should take a shower
26: is there anyone you’re really disappointed in?
Hmm…
27: would you rather have starbucks or jamba juice right now?
Starbucks.
28: why aren’t you in ‘love’ with your last ex anymore?
Uhm. Because I love my boyfriend?
29: how late did you stay up last night and why?
7.00 o’clock. Or it was first 21.30, so I wake up 4.30. And sleep again 7.00.
30: when was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
Sunday before I flight.
31: what were you doing an hour ago?
Eating a French muffin
32: what are you looking forward to in the next month?
My boyfriend is coming to DK, my birthday, my Dad is coming to DK, and my holiday
33: are you wearing jeans right now?
Yes
34: are you a patient person?
No, and I can never learn it.
35: do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?
Hahahaha, I always did before the Boyfriend came.
36: favourite colour?
Red
37: did you have a dream last night?
Yes. About boyfriend, soccer, and weird stuff as always.
38: are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pyjama pants?
Jeans!
39: if someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be?
Big Bear.
40: do you love anyone who is not related to you?
Yes, my Bear.
41: if someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Leave me.
42: do you like meeting new people?
Sometimes.
43: are you afraid of falling in love?
I was.
44: ever self-harmed or starved yourself?
…
45: has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
Haha, I dont have pretty eyes, but that I’m sweet!
46: have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough?
Yes, of course.